Session 6 :
My last session came after a long break. I noticed that my body has become more sensitive to when it is out of balance, and it easier to correct. On the table during the last session, I found it was most similar to the first. My body was no longer having the same spasming and my right hip seemed subdued, or whatever had been so intensely responding had cleared. I fell to sleep again, and awoke to a start. The tension in my neck and my inability to let go and allow my neck to relax has been the same. Other healers have told me that I hold onto things, I have difficulty letting go. Perhaps also because I am driving children around for three to four hours a day during rush hour traffic, and waitressing at a fast paced Lebanese restaurant while doing my creative work, rehabbing an old farmhouse, carrying the responsibility of life as a single mother to five children, and doing intense healing work with trauma myself, that my shoulders and neck are just going to suffer unless I am taking regular time for yoga and massage and self care.
I trust this process of CST and have begun recommending it to all my friends who carry hidden trauma. I can’t exactly explain it, but I have seen it work at healing on very deep levels. Simon asked if I have seen shifts in my posture. As I said that I hold on to things, I think I might need more than six sessions to go to the next level of release and I hope to continue this work in some way. What I *can* say is that it is easier to notice when my body is out of alignment because I have a reference point for when my body is in balance. Where as sometimes you don’t know you’re sick because your body has become so accustomed to feeling sick, you don’t know what healthy feels like. I would, and do, recommend this kind of work to anyone. I recommend it in conjunction with having some talk therapy, or close friends for support to talk through things as they come up. I recommend it with maybe making some dietary shifts, say giving up really heavy foods and excessive caffeine or alcohol, to maximize your body’s receptivity to it. I definitely noticed bigger healing leaps when I was taking care of myself and my body in other ways. I planned longer times to be alone, and enjoyed those times, whereas before I often felt antsy and lonely. As I said before, I think I have recovered a more natural way of being that I lost since childhood, and that is long enjoyable hours of creative alone time. Other things that healed were a long-term fungus infection I had on my feet for a long time and I had despaired of ever healing. I lost weight, my skin improved and I have been more focused and even keeled emotionally. These are not small things. I look forward to seeing the effect of the work in my friends’ lives and my continued journey with CST.