I was now fully aware as the person laying on the table that this was a regression, a memory of something deeper than the waking mind ever gets to experience, and yet things still seemed completely natural. The struggle was also a memory and I as the person in the present moment was still safe and comfortable on the massage table. I realised that this struggle against being in physical form had been going on at the core of my being ever since and that every layer of my personality had been created over this initial seed experience, and consequently coloured by it. I realised that I had to make peace with being here and so I did so. I breathed deeply and let the tension of the struggle leave me, physically, emotionally and mentally. I accepted that I was in the material realm for some time to come and could not change that and gave thanks for the wonderful things that had happen throughout my life so far, for the love and support I had received from family and friends over the years and all the fantastic opportunities that lay ahead of me in this short life.
I felt every aspect of my being shift towards calmness as the resonance of that struggle dissipated and the memory of resistance was reset to one of acceptance and gratitude, and still everything felt so calm and peaceful to me as the one receiving the work. And it felt so normal to be going through this experience, it just made so much sense and answered so many questions about me and the way I am.
And then, suddenly, I was fully awake again, back in the present moment, laying on the massage table with someone holding their hands gently around my head. And then I freaked out. Not a scared freak out like I was concerned in any way at all, more like the shock and surprise of something completely unexpected that takes a while to digest. I had been on the spiritual journey for about 15 years at this point, meditating for much of that time, and thought I knew my inner realms well. I sat up, took a deep breath and asked aloud something like “What the hell was that???” an then recounted the experience to my wife. She seemed unsurprised, said something soothing and agreeable and just carried on working, so I lay down and let her finish. Now the excited stories she told me about what she’d seen and heard during her training made a lot more sense. The rest of the session was uneventful but the sense of deep peace and newfound acceptance of being in my life persisted and has done so ever since.
I was now a firm believer in Craniosacral Therapy and it’s powerful ability to go deep into our psyche and provide us with the opportunity to release and resolve deeply held conflicts and traumatic states of unease. She worked on me many more times after that and each time was just as calming and wonderfully healing, but never have I had such a profound experience as that first time.